It wasn't just coming on too strong. It was cultural expectations that Edmund couldn't begin to grasp, questions and fears that Al was so burdened down by...
But at the same time, Edmund felt so good, wrapping himself around Al, clinging to him like this. Al knew how easy it would be for him to tip one or both of them into heat, and that was the last thing they needed happening on this ship, but a part of him wanted to take advantage of what Edmund was offering. He'd said it himself; he'd been wanting for weeks. No one would blame Al --
But he was not going to be one of those Alphas ruled by base instinct. He knew all the reasons he and Edmund couldn't be together, even if Edmund didn't, and taking advantage of Edmund in a moment like this would just be despicable. Besides, they were barely out of sight, still on the deck of the ship, and if Edmund regretted this later... why wouldn't he... there was no question whose side the many, many potential witnesses would come down on.
Twisted with grief and want, Al moved away from Edmund's rocking hips, steadying himself. "Stop it, Edmund! You need to -- we can't do this."
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Date: 2016-10-17 12:29 am (UTC)But at the same time, Edmund felt so good, wrapping himself around Al, clinging to him like this. Al knew how easy it would be for him to tip one or both of them into heat, and that was the last thing they needed happening on this ship, but a part of him wanted to take advantage of what Edmund was offering. He'd said it himself; he'd been wanting for weeks. No one would blame Al --
But he was not going to be one of those Alphas ruled by base instinct. He knew all the reasons he and Edmund couldn't be together, even if Edmund didn't, and taking advantage of Edmund in a moment like this would just be despicable. Besides, they were barely out of sight, still on the deck of the ship, and if Edmund regretted this later... why wouldn't he... there was no question whose side the many, many potential witnesses would come down on.
Twisted with grief and want, Al moved away from Edmund's rocking hips, steadying himself. "Stop it, Edmund! You need to -- we can't do this."