The pushing away wasn't so bad, since at least Al was touching him. Edmund met his eyes with a hopefulness that betrayed how much he wanted it to be true. He didn't know what to believe anymore. He couldn't even trust his own body. Just being near Al, touching him, it kept whispering things to Edmund that he knew would never come true.
He bit his lip. He trusted Al to tell him the truth. But there - there was the lie. "Except you," he whispered hoarsely. His eyes were wide and dark. "I can be with whoever I want...except you." He gripped Al's elbows, and a flair of his old self was in the struggle of his spirit. "I don't want another alpha. I don't want to be this way. I know I can't have you. But I have nowhere else to turn. I need you here, damn it all."
It went beyond physical. He needed someone who would have his back, unquestionably. He sought that in Kala, but she was so mysterious to him in so many ways still, and the doubts Al had raised tonight resonated with him.
What if Al's just jealous? He doesn't want you, but he doesn't want anyone else to have you either. An unmated alpha...with his chaste omega bitch.
A spot of blood appeared on Edmund's bottom lip where he'd bit it hard enough to break the skin. "I've already found an alpha."
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Date: 2018-07-21 12:53 am (UTC)He bit his lip. He trusted Al to tell him the truth. But there - there was the lie. "Except you," he whispered hoarsely. His eyes were wide and dark. "I can be with whoever I want...except you." He gripped Al's elbows, and a flair of his old self was in the struggle of his spirit. "I don't want another alpha. I don't want to be this way. I know I can't have you. But I have nowhere else to turn. I need you here, damn it all."
It went beyond physical. He needed someone who would have his back, unquestionably. He sought that in Kala, but she was so mysterious to him in so many ways still, and the doubts Al had raised tonight resonated with him.
What if Al's just jealous? He doesn't want you, but he doesn't want anyone else to have you either. An unmated alpha...with his chaste omega bitch.
A spot of blood appeared on Edmund's bottom lip where he'd bit it hard enough to break the skin. "I've already found an alpha."