Jest or no, the words are a fresh wound to Al's battered self control. 'We might have had a proper roll.' Of course. That's what he is to Edmund, a convenient treat. A plaything. Not a lover, not a spouse.
It's part of why having Edmund as a lion would make things easier. Yes, there were lions who had sex without mating, but not alphas. Not fertile lions from a pride in distress. And not Al. That wasn't him. He'd never wanted something casual. Never really wanted something romantic at all, until he'd met this stupid, stupid panther, who twisted him up and raked him out again and again.
Maybe, when this was over, he should leave and find another pride. Ignore Peter's edicts. There was a risk, that whatever taint Jadis had laid on him would spread. Al knew he was far from normal in his disinterest, even for an alpha lion. And no other pride would want him unless he could mate and make children to carry on the line. But maybe it was time. He couldn't stay here any longer and watch Edmund move from dalliance to dalliance.
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Date: 2017-08-30 05:10 pm (UTC)It's part of why having Edmund as a lion would make things easier. Yes, there were lions who had sex without mating, but not alphas. Not fertile lions from a pride in distress. And not Al. That wasn't him. He'd never wanted something casual. Never really wanted something romantic at all, until he'd met this stupid, stupid panther, who twisted him up and raked him out again and again.
Maybe, when this was over, he should leave and find another pride. Ignore Peter's edicts. There was a risk, that whatever taint Jadis had laid on him would spread. Al knew he was far from normal in his disinterest, even for an alpha lion. And no other pride would want him unless he could mate and make children to carry on the line. But maybe it was time. He couldn't stay here any longer and watch Edmund move from dalliance to dalliance.
"I don't know. I don't know what to do."