What could he say? Al's heart shattered again, hearing Edmund's desperation and sadness. He was supposed to be helping, but he was making things worth. Poor Edmund, trapped with a worthless Alpha who wasn't providing any relief.
But what Al needed from Edmund, he couldn't demand. Could he say, 'I need you to love me the way I'm afraid I love you,' and not get laughed out of the tent? Could he even acknowledge how deep his feelings had grown for Edmund, and how watching him with any other partner was torturous now? The sting from his dalliances had soured something within Al, hammering home how little he meant to Edmund in the grand scheme. And how close he still was to falling into this abyss, one that seemed impossible to avoid.
"I need you to understand," he said finallly, his own voice bleak. "I wouldn't have chosen this for us, for you. I'm sorry, Edmund. I wish --"
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Date: 2017-08-30 02:57 am (UTC)But what Al needed from Edmund, he couldn't demand. Could he say, 'I need you to love me the way I'm afraid I love you,' and not get laughed out of the tent? Could he even acknowledge how deep his feelings had grown for Edmund, and how watching him with any other partner was torturous now? The sting from his dalliances had soured something within Al, hammering home how little he meant to Edmund in the grand scheme. And how close he still was to falling into this abyss, one that seemed impossible to avoid.
"I need you to understand," he said finallly, his own voice bleak. "I wouldn't have chosen this for us, for you. I'm sorry, Edmund. I wish --"